Scars and Stars

I went and had that done. It seems like overcoming fears is easier these days. It was painful but the most difficult part was the few minutes before the eargun hit me –- having the courage to actually go to the shop and surrender my ear. I know this is just a small step… and there are bigger ones coming soon. I am grateful for the few who are still holding my hand, lending me strength and pulling me when I am about to stumble. Kaya ko naman pala.

Life is what you make it. Just like a book with different chapters, it is up to us whether we feel like it’s time to turn the page or not. Sometime’s it’s easy, sometimes it will take more of what we have. I have been stuck in one for too long and that realization came to me in such a good time. All along I thought I have left that chapter only to find out that I have been leading a new chapter but still living in the remnants of the other. I found out why – because I willed myself to move on but conveniently let the other characters to hang around. It takes two to tango, true. I thought I was doing “damage control” ,I never realized that someone used that phrase on me a decade ago & it did just the opposite. We may sometimes want to cling on, hope to prolong the read… Other times, we just want to go through in a breeze to get it over with. Unlike a book, we cannot just pluck pages out. It takes enormous courage to accept things that we cannot change. It is such a bl

So this is how it feels to finally let go and be let go of. I’ve tried to picture this happening in the hope of preparing myself… But as they say – you can never be prepared for such. Sometimes I’d wish that things could have taken a different direction… but I don’t know how long I could have kept on walking through. I allowed myself to take this turn and I don’t regret it – I don’t blame myself and I will never blame you, for this has given me a different kind of strength I never imagined I had. Moving on is easy… Looking back is not and is inevitable. So the new chapter can now begin. This time I think I am going to surrender myself to this and that’s not being weak. This is acceptance. I am glad I am headed home right now. There could never be a better place to start fresh than to start from where I came from.

 an assortment of travel and hotel brochures  So with the big jumpstart that I got I think I can now focus all my energy and attention to my 2012 plans.