Scars and Stars

I'm driving today. Taking the driver's seat is overwhelming -- it's both challenging, exciting and scary. Just like when one decides to be the captain of one's life. There are a lot of responsibilities involved, a lot at stake... Yet the satisfaction whenever a goal is conquered is simply priceless.

The sun is shining brightly for me.  Oh my, I am amazed with the changes on how I perceive things around me.  I must say that I am pleasantly surprised at this -- it's not a total 360 degrees but it is still a paradigm shift nonetheless. I am proud at how far I've moved, I've been so stagnant for a decade... although I will not say that being stagnant wasted my time, it's just that I took my time too much.  I didn't realize that I could reach for higher things, I didn't realize that I deserve better things.  The support that I'm getting is also overwhelming.  I didn't know that I could pursue my dreams without feeling the guilt that I am leaving someone behind.  I feel empowered to spread my wings.  I sound like an 18-year-old confronting an epiphany, and perhaps this is indeed long over due, but as they say -- better late than never.

I've been really busy lately. I wanted to write about several things but I couldn't find the time to. Heck, the book I've been reading has been sitting on our bedside shelf for weeks, untouched. I couldn't even keep up with my Twitter and Instagram timelines! I am that busy. So busy and tired that I often find myself just staring out the window on my daily cab commute to and from work. Now to the updates... Well, much of my time is consumed by stuff for the 'kumikitang kabuhayan' (as I'd like to call it)... Excel has become my bestest friend and auditing has become my favorite task of all. It's been crazy and it's still is. Time management has been a challenge and I feel like a legit business woman now. ;) I understand that this is a long-term commitment and I'm surprised that I've placed myself in this position (knowing how ningas-kugon I can get). This is not like a hobby that I can just drop according to my whim. I hope I can "