Scars and Stars

Since early last year, I already had these plans.   I often discuss this intention with my friends but until this month they remained to be, well, just plans.   When 2013 came in, I decided to pray for it.   I started asking Him for concrete signs that this is what’s good for me, for J and for our families.   To my amazement, He already gave me 3 signs in a span of three weeks, how’s that for an express delivery? I am dumbfounded as to how He communicated these signs to me -– through very unexpected channels.   Now I’m writing this entry not to brag that I finally did it or that it was a success.   I’m writing about this to share that He has been very faithful to the prayers of his daughter.   He has been truly faithful to me.    Now it’s up to me to get these wheels moving. Although I know that He has given me the go signal to pursue this but just like any major decisions and changes, I’m scared.   I wil...

With the ladies in the family - my sisters, Mama and my niece Ayezzah That feeling when you are on rest day mode and you don't feel like doing anything, just spend time watching TV or munching on some new snack...that feeling makes me miss my sisters more. If I were home, I'd probably just send an SMS to them and ask them to ship the nephews and nieces over. Or I'd probably just pop myself into their homes to play with the kids. Now that I am close to building my own household... There's no other place I want to be than be just a 5-minute ride away from one of my sister's home. Gosh I miss 'growing up' with them. We have our disagreements, sure, but above all else I think there is that common eagerness amongst us to share experiences together. Or maybe that's just how sisters are wired.

 Manila Bay, Philippines  What a ride 2012 has been! Comical as it is but it feels like I’ve been tossed into a laundry machine – twirled, tumbled, squeezed and stretched. Though I came out torn in some places, important thing is I am given another fresh start. I know they say an opportunity only comes once but I also believe that you’ll never run out of chances as long as you allow yourself to have it. There are things worth fighting for and there were those which are better let go of. The wisdom to know the difference between the two is elusive but I’m glad that looking back, I think I made the right choices. So when 2012 started, I said it will be a fierce year and it truly was. I know that 2013 will be a BIG year for me. Those BIG dreams which were set aside before have waited for me enough and I know in my heart that I am ready to take them on. I know that there are BIG decisions to make and I’m a bit challenged but I also know that last year prepared me -- 20...

A birthday collage from my mom & siblings Just very a very quick update on random stuff. NOVEMBER Celebrated VT*ch's 4th anniversary with the company last November & I'll be turning 8 yrs old with APS in a few weeks. I'm sure we all go through this phase at one point or another... the question is will I get over this phase or will I finally give in? It has been quite a drag lately because I don't feel that kurot inside me anymore. There have been several decisions that doesn't sit well with me and they're starting to pile up. Went to Boracay with the whole fambam. Yes, all 20 of us! Crazy. Celebrated my birthday. ;) Met up with my UPSCA friends for my birthday salubong . I haven't seen them since December last year & meeting them again was one of the best burthday presents I gave myself. Kuya Jeff & Nge gifted us with a dinner buffet at Manila Hotel for my birthday, so J & myself had the chance to go out o...

My craft corner. I'm always excited when the Christmas season is coming not only because I love receiving gifts but because I'm in-love with wrapping presents. I have this grand ambition of giving handmade presents to all my family and friends. Of course I'm not at all good at crafts and the closest I've been to realizing that dream is giving out handmade Christmas cards (but I tried and will keep on trying). So this year, although work is crazy stressful and busy, life also feels ironically "in-order". Despite the busy daily schedule I am finding more time to explore different crafts. I want to be a crafter! I envy those girls who seem to have magic in their fingertips to create beautiful things! They say crafting is such a "lola" hobby... maybe because you can craft just by yourself, it really does not require much interaction, perfect for those who have their sariling mundo . On the contrary though, based on the crafty blogs that I've be...

So I'm doing a test run if blogging using the iPad is easier... Too bad I need to download Google+ to be able to try uploading photos for and can't just import straight from the camera roll (I didn't want to download anything yet). It's easier and faster obviously because I have a bigger QWERTY keypad compared to the iTouch that I'm used to using and it's way portable compared to my Acer laptop. Looks like I will get the hang of using an iPad for blogging. Well... Let's see. ;)

I was excited for this week since Monday is US Labor Day and we don't have to go to work. On a Monday night! Yeah! But my happy bubble was quickly burst... there's a medical situation that I needed to attend to - which was apparently so urgent that I had to skip work as early as Friday last week. I was hoping to be back working my lazy butt off tomorrow (Tuesday) but after several visits to several doctors over the weekend and this morning, it seems that my long weekend will really be long indeed. I was not allowed to work for the whole week. That spot right there in the picture is a result of a PAINFUL procedure given to me early this morning. I have to go back and have it analyzed on Thursday. Then another consultation with the doctor on Friday. I found myself staring at that spot on several occassions the whole day today. How dare could this one tiny red spot decide on how I will be in the next few weeks (months...years...I don't know). I told my mom about...