Scars and Stars

A birthday collage from my mom & siblings Just very a very quick update on random stuff. NOVEMBER Celebrated VT*ch's 4th anniversary with the company last November & I'll be turning 8 yrs old with APS in a few weeks. I'm sure we all go through this phase at one point or another... the question is will I get over this phase or will I finally give in? It has been quite a drag lately because I don't feel that kurot inside me anymore. There have been several decisions that doesn't sit well with me and they're starting to pile up. Went to Boracay with the whole fambam. Yes, all 20 of us! Crazy. Celebrated my birthday. ;) Met up with my UPSCA friends for my birthday salubong . I haven't seen them since December last year & meeting them again was one of the best burthday presents I gave myself. Kuya Jeff & Nge gifted us with a dinner buffet at Manila Hotel for my birthday, so J & myself had the chance to go out o...

My craft corner. I'm always excited when the Christmas season is coming not only because I love receiving gifts but because I'm in-love with wrapping presents. I have this grand ambition of giving handmade presents to all my family and friends. Of course I'm not at all good at crafts and the closest I've been to realizing that dream is giving out handmade Christmas cards (but I tried and will keep on trying). So this year, although work is crazy stressful and busy, life also feels ironically "in-order". Despite the busy daily schedule I am finding more time to explore different crafts. I want to be a crafter! I envy those girls who seem to have magic in their fingertips to create beautiful things! They say crafting is such a "lola" hobby... maybe because you can craft just by yourself, it really does not require much interaction, perfect for those who have their sariling mundo . On the contrary though, based on the crafty blogs that I've be...

So I'm doing a test run if blogging using the iPad is easier... Too bad I need to download Google+ to be able to try uploading photos for and can't just import straight from the camera roll (I didn't want to download anything yet). It's easier and faster obviously because I have a bigger QWERTY keypad compared to the iTouch that I'm used to using and it's way portable compared to my Acer laptop. Looks like I will get the hang of using an iPad for blogging. Well... Let's see. ;)

I was excited for this week since Monday is US Labor Day and we don't have to go to work. On a Monday night! Yeah! But my happy bubble was quickly burst... there's a medical situation that I needed to attend to - which was apparently so urgent that I had to skip work as early as Friday last week. I was hoping to be back working my lazy butt off tomorrow (Tuesday) but after several visits to several doctors over the weekend and this morning, it seems that my long weekend will really be long indeed. I was not allowed to work for the whole week. That spot right there in the picture is a result of a PAINFUL procedure given to me early this morning. I have to go back and have it analyzed on Thursday. Then another consultation with the doctor on Friday. I found myself staring at that spot on several occassions the whole day today. How dare could this one tiny red spot decide on how I will be in the next few weeks (months...years...I don't know). I told my mom about...

I'm driving today. Taking the driver's seat is overwhelming -- it's both challenging, exciting and scary. Just like when one decides to be the captain of one's life. There are a lot of responsibilities involved, a lot at stake... Yet the satisfaction whenever a goal is conquered is simply priceless.

The sun is shining brightly for me.  Oh my, I am amazed with the changes on how I perceive things around me.  I must say that I am pleasantly surprised at this -- it's not a total 360 degrees but it is still a paradigm shift nonetheless. I am proud at how far I've moved, I've been so stagnant for a decade... although I will not say that being stagnant wasted my time, it's just that I took my time too much.  I didn't realize that I could reach for higher things, I didn't realize that I deserve better things.  The support that I'm getting is also overwhelming.  I didn't know that I could pursue my dreams without feeling the guilt that I am leaving someone behind.  I feel empowered to spread my wings.  I sound like an 18-year-old confronting an epiphany, and perhaps this is indeed long over due, but as they say -- better late than never.

I've been really busy lately. I wanted to write about several things but I couldn't find the time to. Heck, the book I've been reading has been sitting on our bedside shelf for weeks, untouched. I couldn't even keep up with my Twitter and Instagram timelines! I am that busy. So busy and tired that I often find myself just staring out the window on my daily cab commute to and from work. Now to the updates... Well, much of my time is consumed by stuff for the 'kumikitang kabuhayan' (as I'd like to call it)... Excel has become my bestest friend and auditing has become my favorite task of all. It's been crazy and it's still is. Time management has been a challenge and I feel like a legit business woman now. ;) I understand that this is a long-term commitment and I'm surprised that I've placed myself in this position (knowing how ningas-kugon I can get). This is not like a hobby that I can just drop according to my whim. I hope I can ...